The Leap of Faith

It is so hard to find words for how truly blessed I feel. I'll do my best though because this is probably one of the biggest blessings I have received in a long time, or rather, one that I've noticed.

As I said in my other post, I truly believe that we need to do what makes us happy and the entire goal in life is to be happy and feel love from others and from ourselves. I started out the semester really really stressed. I had 13 credits, 35 work hours, institute, chiropractic and all types of counseling appointments. I was over the brim. But I really felt like I couldn't possibly drop any of it for all kinds of reasons.

I didn't feel like I could drop any work hours because I was so worried about money. I couldn't drop any classes either because they were required to apply to the program, which I had already done. It was incredibly scary, but I ended up deciding to drop my morning job and 2 of my classes. I was worried about my money being lower than it has ever been since just out of high school. I was worried about not getting into my major and having the money that I need to sustain me.

After dropping the classes though, I had a lot more free time to really truly relax and not feel nearly as stressed. I also was able to work 20 hours at my main job rather than just 17. I felt like that decision was good.

Today I called my dad to tell him good news of finding something I had lost for a long time. I was so happy that I found it! He said he was actually just thinking about me. He said that he got a really large check in the mail because I dropped the classes (it was about the same amount I'm losing from not working at the morning job)!! Oh goodness..... Literally such a blessing...

See... I truly felt like Heavenly Father told me that I could do whatever I wanted to do and He would provide the rest when I was trying to decide whether to drop my classes or not. I decided I would feel best if I dropped things. Once I did, not only did I get a check in the mail for the exact amount I would've gotten if I kept the job I dropped, I'm able to work more hours at my other job, have a lot more free time, a lot less stress, and things just seemed to work out all too well for Him not to be involved.

I am a firm believer that Heavenly Father is very involved with every small detail of our lives. He is watching over me because He loves me. I was told recently that He is very aware of how hard I'm trying to work and that He will bless me for it. I know that this is a tiny part of it. I know He is watching over me and that He knows what I really need most. I took that leap of faith and dropped so many things, losing a lot of opportunities, hoping that it'd all work out. It has. In fact, it's working out far better than I could've ever possibly imagined. It just helps me know that I really do matter and that I really can do whatever I want to do as long as I'm doing it to help me feel happy. He cares. I know He does and I trust Him far more than words could ever express. <3